So I originally started this post out about my short term addictions to video games and how I get super into them and then I just stop... but then I got home and completely deleted everything 'cause I realized there was something else I wanted to talk about.
With the upcoming holiday season, and the end of my high school career, I'm beginning to feel the Forever Alone-ness that has been my past four holiday seasons in high school. Best years of my life? Not when I look back and remember how close I've been to (yet still so far away from) spending the coldest times of the year with a significant other. With these thoughts frequently in mind, I began to search up psychology related stuff on why the holiday season = a search for companionship. My search was fruitless 'cause most people on psychology today are more focused on making themselves happy rather than why the cuss they feel sad during these next few months. I can't blame them, I mean, I'd like to feel happy, too, but I really really want to know why... kinda like House...
Anywho, so because of my lack of research, I'm just gonna go ahead and say why I think I feel this way... get ready for a cuss-load of conjecture!
I'd say that the primary reason I feel my Forever Alone-ness more now than the rest of the year is because it's cold outside. Cold = need to be warm = need sources of warmth = boyfriend. Also there might be a little bit of that seasonal affective disorder (hahah I just realized an acronym for it is SAD... that's just sad D=) kicking in... it probably doesn't help that I just got out of a relationship, so I'm definitely feeling the loss there. Conclusion? The most romantic time of the year has got to be the most depressing time of the year for everyone who doesn't have a romantic partner.
There... that wasn't a cuss-load of conjecture, but it still is conjecture; however, I'm pretty sure most people could understand my logic (though I am sure there's way more to it than just what I see on the surface). So cheers to four years of loneliness...
Do ya'll know that feel?
It could be worse, It could be Valentine's Day, for people that are single its the ultimate Forever Alone time of the year.
ReplyDeletebeth... i think you have plenty of reason to argue why you want a companion during winter time but dont be too stressed beth!
ReplyDeleteUghhh, I totallyyyyyyyy feel your pain :/ but don't stress it too much. I know it's hard, but it'll happen if it's meant to!
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