So I originally started this post out about my short term addictions to video games and how I get super into them and then I just stop... but then I got home and completely deleted everything 'cause I realized there was something else I wanted to talk about.
With the upcoming holiday season, and the end of my high school career, I'm beginning to feel the Forever Alone-ness that has been my past four holiday seasons in high school. Best years of my life? Not when I look back and remember how close I've been to (yet still so far away from) spending the coldest times of the year with a significant other. With these thoughts frequently in mind, I began to search up psychology related stuff on why the holiday season = a search for companionship. My search was fruitless 'cause most people on psychology today are more focused on making themselves happy rather than why the cuss they feel sad during these next few months. I can't blame them, I mean, I'd like to feel happy, too, but I really really want to know why... kinda like House...
Anywho, so because of my lack of research, I'm just gonna go ahead and say why I think I feel this way... get ready for a cuss-load of conjecture!
I'd say that the primary reason I feel my Forever Alone-ness more now than the rest of the year is because it's cold outside. Cold = need to be warm = need sources of warmth = boyfriend. Also there might be a little bit of that seasonal affective disorder (hahah I just realized an acronym for it is SAD... that's just sad D=) kicking in... it probably doesn't help that I just got out of a relationship, so I'm definitely feeling the loss there. Conclusion? The most romantic time of the year has got to be the most depressing time of the year for everyone who doesn't have a romantic partner.
There... that wasn't a cuss-load of conjecture, but it still is conjecture; however, I'm pretty sure most people could understand my logic (though I am sure there's way more to it than just what I see on the surface). So cheers to four years of loneliness...
Do ya'll know that feel?
Sunday, November 20, 2011
Sunday, November 13, 2011
Let's Just Stop, Drop Everything, Forget Each Other's Name's, And Just Walk Away
The Cyril Burt Affair
So what I got from this was that Sir Cyril Burt was an educational psychologist who studied the heredity of intelligence. I laugh that I chose this study because, after reading this, I realized this might be part of the research my aunt's friends' had been studying. Anywho, Cyril Burt did tons of twin studies, but after his death, many scientists began to find problems with his data; they began to accuse him of forging his unnaturally perfect data. So all the "proof" he had proving intelligence to be hereditary was flushed down the figurative toilet, and his reputation with it. Fortunately for him, some researchers, Robert Joynson and Ronald Fletcher, have "raised doubts about the accusations of a fraud." His name may yet be saved. Yay.
I'm just going to say this, from my familial standpoint, I'd say intelligence is hereditary. Both my mom and dad are of high intelligence as are my sister, my brother, and I. We all like generally the same things, and we all excel at the same things. Our extended family are also in the same intelligence range. I'd say Cyril Burt had something going, though I do admit that some of his data did seem "unnaturally perfect."
Tuesday, November 8, 2011
We All Know That You're A Beautiful Girl In This Horrible World
Note on the titles: yeah... they're all lyrics from Chiodos songs... idk why =X I guess I'm just letting it stick =/
SOOOO I'm super interested and curious about "who the eff I is" (lol, yes, Nicki Minaj....) so I tried to go above and beyond with the tests, but I realized I didn't really do so when I started typing up this post; thues I had to stay up half the night taking tests. Oops.
For those of you actually interested in me =] for who I am =] thanks for reading ehehehe.
1. Jung Typology Test
-I'm an ISFJ. They pretty much nailed me... I felt like not needing to take anymore tests after I read the reviews or whatever on who ISFJ's are (like not who as in a person, but who as in personality). For anyone looking for more insight on who I am, here and here are the links to the articles the test provided me with =] I was pretty much preening myself over my personality until I got to this one part in Marina Margaret Heiss's evaluation on ISFJ's that said basically because of who I was, I might "suffer from psychosomatic illnesses." That freaked the poop out of me (figuratively, not literally). And I actually feel like I get enough praise/recognition, so I think that one characterization about how we feel like we don't get enough praise/recognition of an ISFJ is wrong.
2. EQ Tests
-The first one was a 39 out of who knows how much with an evaluation for a range between 35 and 44
which basically told me I was pretty good, but I could be better, at being emotionally sensitive... or whatever
-The second one was a 72 out of 100 (not quite double my score from the first test; and a letter grade - according to the FBISD - of a D; buuuuuu) with an evaluation that said the same exact thing; I have "room to grow."
3. Prejudice Tests
-I was pretty proud of myself on the preference between African American and European American test - "[my] data suggest[s] little to no automatic preference between African American and European American." I attribute that to the diverse society I was raised in (my mom, who's lived all over the place frequently tells me that the FBISD area is the most diverse place she's lived; which makes me not want to live anywhere else). I mean, I'm a halfie, why would I be prejudiced when I'm two almost completely different races put together?
-I can't say I'm uber proud with the male vs. female test, but I can't say I'm disappointed in myself either. "[My] data suggest[s] a slight association of Male with CAREER and Female with FAMILY compared to Female with CAREER and Male with FAMILY." I'm a conventional child, what can I say? Heck, I still believe in "one and only" even after all the fail relationships I've been in.
4. My Sex I.D.
-Well... I scored the exact number that the average score of women who take the test is.
The first part of the test told me I was split evenly between male and female. The second part told me I was "right brained." Which is totally refuted by the next test I'll write about... The third part told me I was mostly empathetic and super feminine for it. What I understood from the fourth part is that my left hand is a woman's hand and my right hand is a man's hand... I guess you'll just have to take the test to understand what that means =] The fifth part was that thing with the faces we did before in Ms. Halfen's class... and yeah, I prefer more feminine faces. The sixth part made me feel pretty failure-istic. QQ I can't rotate 3D shapes in my head D= but I guess I'm a woman because of that. I'm female because I can associate several words with a word... and apparently, asking for an even split, 50/50, of a pot is more feminine than masculine (females would demand less than 60% of the pot whereas males would demand more than 65% of the pot). Don't ask. I don't even...
post script: I think I'm the only one courageous enough to take this test =X I do admit that I half expected me to be slightly more "masculine" than I've been evaluated as being... *shrugs* but hey, I'm taking a test off of the internet, I can't really say this is the real deal and then begin basing my life off of it, now can I =]
5. Brain Inventory
-This test told me I was 65.4% "left brained" with a 61.5% auditory preference. The analysis didn't say much. I'm super detail-oriented and I tend to learn better from auditory cues versus visual cues... which gives me an "extremely efficient and businesslike approach to learning and life." And it's hard for me to have fun.
And none of that really made sense to me because I do too know how to have fun >=I And for those of you who know me, I am not "efficient and businesslike" at all... I procrastinate too much for efficiency and, being the people-lover I am, it's hard to maintain a business-esque facade for very long.
That's basically it... I mean, I feel like the most revealing test was the Jung's Typology Test... ... I felt like I could begin to fathom "me." I SO ENJOYED THE OPTION OF "MIXED RACE" WHEN ASKED MY DEMOGRAPHICS <3 Teehee.
I will say this: all the BBC tests started cussing me off because they were so freaking long... I wasted like 45 minutes on the "How Musical Are You" test, and the results had a lack of personality analysis. =X NEVER AGAIN, BBC; though I do plan to have fun with some of the other tests. =] Maybe I'll edit this post later on to include them.
SOOOO I'm super interested and curious about "who the eff I is" (lol, yes, Nicki Minaj....) so I tried to go above and beyond with the tests, but I realized I didn't really do so when I started typing up this post; thues I had to stay up half the night taking tests. Oops.
For those of you actually interested in me =] for who I am =] thanks for reading ehehehe.
1. Jung Typology Test
-I'm an ISFJ. They pretty much nailed me... I felt like not needing to take anymore tests after I read the reviews or whatever on who ISFJ's are (like not who as in a person, but who as in personality). For anyone looking for more insight on who I am, here and here are the links to the articles the test provided me with =] I was pretty much preening myself over my personality until I got to this one part in Marina Margaret Heiss's evaluation on ISFJ's that said basically because of who I was, I might "suffer from psychosomatic illnesses." That freaked the poop out of me (figuratively, not literally). And I actually feel like I get enough praise/recognition, so I think that one characterization about how we feel like we don't get enough praise/recognition of an ISFJ is wrong.
2. EQ Tests
-The first one was a 39 out of who knows how much with an evaluation for a range between 35 and 44
which basically told me I was pretty good, but I could be better, at being emotionally sensitive... or whatever
-The second one was a 72 out of 100 (not quite double my score from the first test; and a letter grade - according to the FBISD - of a D; buuuuuu) with an evaluation that said the same exact thing; I have "room to grow."
3. Prejudice Tests
-I was pretty proud of myself on the preference between African American and European American test - "[my] data suggest[s] little to no automatic preference between African American and European American." I attribute that to the diverse society I was raised in (my mom, who's lived all over the place frequently tells me that the FBISD area is the most diverse place she's lived; which makes me not want to live anywhere else). I mean, I'm a halfie, why would I be prejudiced when I'm two almost completely different races put together?
-I can't say I'm uber proud with the male vs. female test, but I can't say I'm disappointed in myself either. "[My] data suggest[s] a slight association of Male with CAREER and Female with FAMILY compared to Female with CAREER and Male with FAMILY." I'm a conventional child, what can I say? Heck, I still believe in "one and only" even after all the fail relationships I've been in.
4. My Sex I.D.
-Well... I scored the exact number that the average score of women who take the test is.
The first part of the test told me I was split evenly between male and female. The second part told me I was "right brained." Which is totally refuted by the next test I'll write about... The third part told me I was mostly empathetic and super feminine for it. What I understood from the fourth part is that my left hand is a woman's hand and my right hand is a man's hand... I guess you'll just have to take the test to understand what that means =] The fifth part was that thing with the faces we did before in Ms. Halfen's class... and yeah, I prefer more feminine faces. The sixth part made me feel pretty failure-istic. QQ I can't rotate 3D shapes in my head D= but I guess I'm a woman because of that. I'm female because I can associate several words with a word... and apparently, asking for an even split, 50/50, of a pot is more feminine than masculine (females would demand less than 60% of the pot whereas males would demand more than 65% of the pot). Don't ask. I don't even...
post script: I think I'm the only one courageous enough to take this test =X I do admit that I half expected me to be slightly more "masculine" than I've been evaluated as being... *shrugs* but hey, I'm taking a test off of the internet, I can't really say this is the real deal and then begin basing my life off of it, now can I =]
5. Brain Inventory
-This test told me I was 65.4% "left brained" with a 61.5% auditory preference. The analysis didn't say much. I'm super detail-oriented and I tend to learn better from auditory cues versus visual cues... which gives me an "extremely efficient and businesslike approach to learning and life." And it's hard for me to have fun.
And none of that really made sense to me because I do too know how to have fun >=I And for those of you who know me, I am not "efficient and businesslike" at all... I procrastinate too much for efficiency and, being the people-lover I am, it's hard to maintain a business-esque facade for very long.
That's basically it... I mean, I feel like the most revealing test was the Jung's Typology Test... ... I felt like I could begin to fathom "me." I SO ENJOYED THE OPTION OF "MIXED RACE" WHEN ASKED MY DEMOGRAPHICS <3 Teehee.
I will say this: all the BBC tests started cussing me off because they were so freaking long... I wasted like 45 minutes on the "How Musical Are You" test, and the results had a lack of personality analysis. =X NEVER AGAIN, BBC; though I do plan to have fun with some of the other tests. =] Maybe I'll edit this post later on to include them.
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